HSG

Since abis kursus, ingat hari tu bulan 4 nak sambung treatment, tp disebabkan period dtg hari jumaat (27 april), so terpaksa batalkan niat. so bulan ni period dtg waktu ptg 30 mei. Semalam hari kedua period terus call Hospital Putrajaya untuk ambil clomid seperti yg diberitahu bulan lepas ~ nurse tu ckp ble dtg terus untuk sambung treatment. Ptg lps lunch, terus pg sana and proses sangat cepat sebab  tak ramai org.
From medical record, Dr. bertugas hari tu kata saya sepatutnya kena buat HSG dulu baru boleh proceed untuk ambil Clomid sekali lagi. Pelik juga...nape Dr yg rawat saya dulu tak bagitau pun?
So, ditetapkan tarikh HSG saya ialah pada 11 Jun 2012...satu je perasaan saya...nervous bile bab nak kena cucuk-cucuk ni...So, kengkawan ble x kongsi pengalaman HSG uolls dgn saya...

p.s.: Nurse yang bertugas haritu sangat baik dan manis orgnya~ Harlina namanya... Taula kan nurse govt selalunya macam mana..tapi semalam nurse ni siap cakap, "insya allah kak, mudah-mudahan semuanya mudah nanti.."

Amin..

I dont understand why?

I don't understand..
Why it is so bothering them..
Why they are too "concern" about me not getting pregnant yet...
And why it keeps troubling them that we are childless still...

Its not like they will going through the morning sickness for me (if im pregnant)..
Or..willing to share the every pain we have to go through (to have babies)...
Or paying the cost of treatment ...pay the bills and later the cost of rising the child for us...

when...
Actually..
The reality is..
NOW...

Instead what we are going through..
Instead the fact that we are struggling to have babies...
It never bother us to maximum but i wonder why it so bothering them...
We have a happy couple life...
We always enjoy our marriage..
We cherish and treasure every single moment we are together...

yes, sometimes it upsets us..
but we choose not to let the sorrow swallow our lives
and we choose not to let other people decide and interrupt in our lives
and we will not let their unpleasant comments and suggestion to run in our lives...
We choose to live our life to the fullest..
Either with or without children..
Coz we know God never make mistake..

We choose not to bother they feel bothered that we are not a part of them...
Because it was certain that we are not a part of them...
Even later we will be blesses with children..
Still, we will never be a part of them..
The journey that we are walking in will always make us different from them..

It's not that we choose to live in childfree world
Or it's not that we have stop wishing and trying
Or even stop dreaming..